Thursday, March 31, 2005
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8:45 PM
It's end march today. Seems like it only took a few blinks & a quarter of 2005 has juz slipped away.
I need to do some reflection on my life for this quarter a yr.
To bring to shame, I had not achieved much.
Jan 2005
Brand new start of a yr. Life should be pack with new resolutions & new goals to be achieved. None had I set.
Feb 2005
Month of Chinese New Year, I took the extra effort to spring clean the home. Tedious, but nontheless fulfilling. Achievement 1: managed to clean the home up neat & nice to welcome the yr of *cockadoodoo*.
March 2005
Bumpy month.. Grew weary of the sales job I held in a retail healthcare company, OS**. In fact I was contemplating to quit the job for months. For the sake of the pathetic bonus, I swallowed all griefs & dragged myself thru painful months.
See 1 thing with human is they get too indecisive.. A moment of hard-headed *damn I am so sure this is what I want*, the other thing u know, it's no more that.. Rather, it's "Are u sure with the decision?" I kinda stepped back alittle with my final decision to quit after the many months delay. I am gladful the thoughts came sorted clearly.. Frankly speaking, I din know how & the next thing you know? I am a full time bummer...
To stay at home & not work is a trauma.. anytime worst then starvation, thirst & death.. =p (too exaggerative)
See, I have a super lousy temper & a mum whom somehow does little actions that don't quite pleases you or maybe its just me that does not agree to her action, and there goes. As for the details.. I shall spare they readers.. I feel bad for my actions, I truly do esp. after the cooling down. Apology may be registered but I am sure I had stained the r'ship & made her felt bad. V selfish of me, to make 1 feel bad when u urself don't feel too good..
Anyway.. too LONG WINDEDDEDDDDD... *cut cut* cannot wayang onz & onz.
Overall, March had been a blend of good & bad. Good: I made changes to my life, quit my long hrs job in search for a better 1. Regular hrs = more time for myself & folks = more chance to socialise = can get hitched faster.. hahahaha~ Aging.. Hitting 30 & yet a step close to the aisle.. sighh.. all I can do is only to act cool & brush issue off.. Oh did I say I have a kan cheong mama who keeps asking me to give birth to kids so that I can get companions & some1 to look after me when I am old? Hahahaha~ I scared her with the idea wanting to be a single mum.. This? I shall share when I am in the mood to write in future..
My chicken soup here I come.. wait for me..
U folks? C ya ard the corner~
-dinner time-
Friday, March 25, 2005
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1:36 AM
I think staying at home too much ain't that cool an idea.. at least not for now..
Too much to think of.. thoughts strays & mental anxiety builds.
It's day 6 since I went on leave, restlessness is creeping in for sure..
I think I suffer from some serious job syndromes.. 2 jobs in a row I can never cross the 2 yrs 9 mths hurdle.. I leave them by that duration...
I still love my job as a Nutrition Sales person in my previous company.. every bit of it I swear & it took me alot to ditch the job. I'm off it now. With some regrets, not being able to persue my passion no more & also the fear for not being able to get into another job ideally.
It's another milestone I am trying to record in my life chapters now & I do hope thing roll in smoothly as planned. Next chapter in life: NIE here i come.....
Down sides: Health has not been as pinkish as I would love it to be.. Glaucoma has "tortured" me for 5 yrs already & it's taking bits off me as days passes.. My right eye has undergone the knife to keep the disease at bay but he did not stop invasion.. My left eye undergoes eye drops daily to make sure the damages are kept minimal. But I think somehow God had not looked over me enuff.. Or maybe I had not looked over myself enuff.. I feel the damages on my left eye increasing by day. I fear I loss my sight to the unfriendly disease & I fear more for not being able to see anymore. I do have many many more beautiful yrs to go. I want to see more beautiful scenes, people & sights. I wanna see how beautiful my future home, husband & children would be.. I wanna see more beautiful places. I fear I do not have the chance given. I may not be a 24/7 devoted Christian but Lord ain't I still 1 of your child? Lay ur mighty healing hands on me Lord, I pray. That this disease shall not drain me off anymore.
- bedtime -
Thursday, March 24, 2005
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12:03 AM
Ahemm~ *clear throat*
1st posting. march 24th @ 12midnite marks this 1st post i've written.
This got into me after reading the blogs of thy fellow netusers & I kinda find it amazing. Hence I tot, why not I do it too.. *damn typical of species homosapiens* "my folks do it.. argghh may as well I do so too". I admit I am also 1 of thy typical.
Look out for the space... more "juicy" stuffs to come.. Don't get me too wrong.. I mean more exciting write up as I move along.. I am sure this will keep me very occupied for I am capable of whinning & whinning & whinning *jet style*
