came to office in a taxi this morning. hopped onto one that and the uncle's radio was playing 梁静茹's 勇气. been awhile since i've heard the song so it was nice to hymned to it.

8mins journey i reached office got down the cab and felt there there was this wet patch on my right back pocket, with this 凉凉的感觉. so i peered back to check out what's wrong.

kaoZ, if you see what i see you would scream! i've just showered. changed into new fresh clothes, put on nice perfume to make myself feel good for the day but i "SAT" on a wet "UN-IDENTIFIED" item that has caused my skirt to soak up the "UN-IDENTIFED" soucre of fluids. the patch was bigger then my palm, kaoz..

rushed into the washroom immediately check out the skirt upon reaching office. *takes off skirt, looks at patch, sniff sniff, no smell leh, look look, no colour leh" ponder for awhile, sniff again.. confirm no smell. then what fluids lai eh?

the silly uncle's backseat run water from the heavy rain yesterday ah? or some kid's water bottle leak ah? whatever the cause, i am very shitty now. for the thought i am no more "clean and dry" as i wish i would be. for not knowing the source of simi dunno what fluid. and for the fact i cannot complain the silly cab company cause i dunno his car plate.
*deep breathe* okie dok, some sponging with the hand towel did dry up some what the patch, i just have to let the air con do the rest of the job.

for now: loon and try to concentrate on work.. or maybe i should concentrate and chant that his stupid car breaks down for 5 mins before i zoom into work..

out & into my "back-breaking mountain of backlogs to clear"

WARNING! DISGUSTING CONTENT. DO NOT GO BEYOND IF YOU AIN'T STRONG IN THE TUMMY!

Actually nothing to disgusting except for the fact that I had a lapse of 15years (or so +/-) before a dentist has worked his tools on my set of not so white pearly.

It all grounds down to my childhood phobia. This 30odd yrs old (at that time I was only like 8 yrs old) dental nurse whom would come to your classroom with yr records card and "escort" you down to the dental room. Since young I've had bad records of dental cavities that I had never fear getting them "mended" until 1 fine day when she "drilled" till the nerves were touched on and boy can you imagine the shocking sensation I've been thru. Since then, I had never failed to wail when I am on the dentist chair (cept on China Jump's dentist chair the wailing is of different sort. Nah, I've never been on China's Jump dentist chair... if I had, friends who knows me and my alcohol threshold would either have to boot me in the car's cart home or leave me to rot there till I'm sober day 2.). Okie back to the "proper" dentist chair. Since the incident everytime I had to fill a cavity or pull a teeth out, my mum would have to request from Miss Nasty Nurse some anaestatic jabs. Which she would unwilling induce more pain with jabs.

I've never recall visiting the dentist after I've complete Primary education. cept only when the toothache is so bad in sme 1 or 2 occasions I vaguely recall. I choose not to recall cos I would have chicken skin.

SO today with much courage & some slight anxiety when my name was called, I once again sat on that chair again. I must say it was a friendly Dr, Smiley I've met. His a nice and patient dentist. Discussed the possible problem I am having in my gap. And took patience to de-plauge & de-tartar my 32s or so. I din ask him to count. He found 5 small decays in my sets. suggested I tried to let him work on 1 or 2 - I.E DRILL... NO WAY!! so i addressed my psychological phobia to him and the on top my eye issues and he was nice to allow me to bring in drilling later.

Dr smile: say, okie we have a total of 5 to patch up..

Me: How many sessions to get them fixed?

Dr smile: We can do all in one session. all 5 are early stage of decays.

Me: *Toes all wet and curlier then curly fries* Okie I will see you for another 5 more sessions.

*chuckle* and by the way. I ain't lying when i said WET TOES. when i was out of his clinic i sense my toes were wet. this was how tense i was despite him being friendly and the scaling and polishing was pain-free except at some point of times "sensitive" as what he claims.

Dr smile: drills nowadays are better. we use high speed drills and its almost sense-less

me: yeah. but in any event if i faint, do dispose me in the back yard. drag me out.

Dr smile: *chuckle* I've never had patients who faints.

Me: Yeah they prolly hang on ceilings. i see claws on yours.

Dr smile: *straight face*

But all in all the verdict was:- dentist aint monster who chains u in their chairs and go "zeh zeh zeh" non-stop. when i was uncomfy and i held my hand up he stopped. I must thank him for being co-operative.

so over the next few months, you peeps can expect more updates on me getting my set worked with dr smiley. :)

oh, 1 funny thing happened. after 29 yrs of living, i was re-taught how to brush my teeth again. see this is how bad a rapport i have with the dental peeps.

Me: oh, my residing gums on this tooth. after de-tartaring can it resort back?

Dr Smile: nope

Me: then can I sweep it back in place with brushing? *hand action - brush up and down. shows him this is how i brush*

Dr Smile: *takes big denture model and big pink toothbrush out* this is how you brush.

so kids now, learn. lightly in circular motions of the lower edge between the gum and teeth. not up down brushes cos that will cause the gums to reside.

Me: then the molars how? can brush in this motion? *thru and from in strong motion*

Dr smile: these are yr teeth, not washing board. lightly will do.

Me: *paiseh* thx doc halid. Bye~ zooms out of the clinic fast.

;P 30mins $50 poorer but I am very happy. clean teeth "taste" good and feels different on your tongue. i've been "eating" my teeth whole nite non-stop. at the same time feeling a big time fool not claiming any of my dental claims from all my ex-employers. now: want to claim also cannot claim. no such benefits. so peeps out there you know who you are, $80 per annum is better then from yr own pocket... :p

over & out to bed. nitez

i sensed it in me alot this week. partially due to hormonal changes & greatly, stress. i truly feel now how stress can induce your craving for serotonin-producing food.

midweek i was already screaming for a nice cup of coffee & a slice of rich choco cake to ease my tension all built up from work. till date, sat i am still not pampered with the treat. oh well, it's due to laziness which got me waking up late noon and not wanting to go out to pwp as planned but i think i would do it tomorrow. i am also striked with "retail-therapy syndrome" as well. i kept wanting to buy 2 pairs of shoes. i mean it's in my brain. i keep telling myself i want to buy 2 pairs of shoes to make myself feel better. so on thurs despite working late till 8.30pm i went down to the expo metro sales. shopping with work-cooked brains is not a good idea. i was like walking zombie not concentrating, to analyze if i like or don like the things i see. i concluded i went despite being tired to walk so that i could unwind some. it did help.

friday, i packed up work slightly earlier and went to the sales again while on my way home in hope to fulfil my 2 pairs shoes "desire" but yuuuccccckksss~ don't don't!! visit sales like this too frequently. you would end up feeling disguised, repeatingly seeing the same things on sales. i went home empty handed.

back to serotonin and stress, since no choco cakes was there for me to indulge i substituded with chocolate bars instead.
had some cadbury snack bar, some van houton nut bar last week and it all didn't seems to work.
picked up kinder bueno and time out.

seems to have soothe me alittle.
i kept thinking was the delicious bar that i was seeking and yesterday when i saw it at expo 7-11. i was exhilarated. but after tasting it, it aint. bueno was the 1 that worked well for me. u know what? i actually made a blunder,

is the truly delicious 1. i cannot find it in the marts here.. so i should seek in bigger marts.... gambette & out~

-UGGHH- this post could had been up yesterday during lunch time but my fat finger tapped the space bar and soon 3/4 of my post VARNISHED!!! so this time i am smarter. i save as i go along. *cross those fingers*

this week has been utter madness. has plenty to update but i simply lack the energy to do so.

work is piling up and on top of that, AUDIT!!! say half of my time, i am buried with the audit request digging into old mouldy compactus for old time records. tiring.

sleep has been bad for the entire week. had been sleeping on the couch like almost everyday till wee hrs before i stumble back to bed. there were days when the tv and door were left on and opened till like 4.3am!! luckily no cats or pests crawled in. pests maybe yes. bad. worst, the eye was left uncovered and unattended. talk about the hygiene and safety for it. zero. gulp~ hope ah seah would not give me bad news when i next see him. should bring forward his appt from 2 weeks from now to next sat. i cannot "resist" seeing ah seah!!!!

talking abt leaving the door open. i recall this incident years back when 1 nite the door was left open till wee hrs when suddenly a black cat dashed in from nowhere and frenzied itself in the kitchen for sometime. took some effort before aunt and me sent him out of the house. post-adventure, we found out it was the dried salted fish smell that lured him in. apparently i had seen it lurkingly wonder in the corridors for a few days. i think it must had plotted for a few nites before it courageously raved in, too bad u did not successfully ate anything. lucky for u we are not abusive people who scaldes cats.. eeeuuuu my hair is standing as i am typing his now.. no no no i am never an animal abuser. cept i smack "ka-zua".

talking abt ka zuas. there seems to be an increasing numbers of visits in my area also. especially after fumigation, i would see alot of them coming out to do "strolling" along the void decks. last nite, 2 odd am, 1 came out and jalan in my living room. i was about to go back to the bedroom to sleep liao when i suddenly spotted it. carefully walking along the tv console. grabbed a stack of news paper, rolled it up, moved the box of cds aside and the sofa side, slowly waiting for it to crawl into the spacious area. *piak* dead. took 2 pieces of paper tissue wrapped up it's carcass, clean up the mess it left behind. some intestines juices splattered out and 1 feeler and some legs. yucks, he smelt quite abit.. this time because no1 was at home i had to throw it's carcass, usu my aunt would do it. b4 i actually trash it into the bin, i sort of went thru an interesting science lesson. with it wrapped in the tissue i held it in one hand and "examined" it. with thoughts proccessing in my mind like "oh, this is how the feets looks like, oh this is the head and it looks like this". but it din took me long before i was sounder and went like.. eehhhh ugly, throw throw.. :P but it was educational to "study a ka-zua"

i have more interesting post on chatrooms & people which i intended to share but my "props" are saved in office laptop, so i should leave it till monday. stay tuned folks while i laze my perfect saturday away.

TO HELL WITH DRAIN TILES!!

Just brought my favorite pair of Charles & Keith last saturday to the cobbler uncle to fix the worn out heel tab from my abused walking, so this morning I was so delighted I could use the pair of pink heels for work again. After leaving it on the rack for 2 weeks or so.

BUT PUI!!! I was caught in between the drain tiles when I was walking out, just beneath my block. See, how nice for a Monday morning start. Struggled for a few minutes, could not loosen the shoe, and in despair a kind malay man in his 30s came along. He placed down his marketing & ask me to step aside, lifted up the tiles slightly with some left right loosening effect and I slowly pulled out my shoe. Thank god the heel did not broke, so I was some blessing in disguise. BUT, the leather covering the heel is so badly SCRATCHED that I can feel the heart bleeding badly now.. Dripping red flesh blood.. ARGGHHH.. of all to happen on my most favorite pair of shoes at current..

I think I am super duper unlucky when it comes to women-y shoes. Over the last few weekend, I was in town with another pair of black slip ons, also the same thing happened, the leather covering got scrapped off 1 huge chunk from shifting aside to prevent bumming into a woman when going down the stairs. I lose balance & somewhat missed a step. There when "falling" the shoe was damaged also!! ARGHHH!! What's with me and shoes? No luck? Not faithed to keep them nice nice for as long?

Guess what sucks most? I feel damn frustrated when they get damaged. For I am a girly gal who cannot stand it when my shoes gets "hurt", I get more "hurt" in return..

ARRGGHHHH, barely 1030am in a Monday morning, I am already so shitty...
Deep breathe.. old shoes don't go, new shoes don't come. (READ: I am desperately trying to comfort myself!)
I think a good coffee and the tuna sandwich I have MAY help..
All I want now is to get done & over with the day and go home..

Out & to my breakfast~

You can call me slow. But after soooooooooooo long, I finally visited Carls Jr @ Marina Square last Saturday.

Went to visit Expensive Steve again to get my eyes review & he said the condition was so bad he had to gouge one eye out. Kidding, he says the condition is good so I ain't have to be concerned with the uncomfort I was experiencing for the last few days.

Visited aunty at Taka for awhile before I headed to MS. Walked alittle then headed for lunch.

I should had done some "homework" before visiting Carls Jr. For I was alittle lost when I was in the queue, with bad eyesight that I could not make up what to order. Some1 infront of me order something bacon so I scrutinised the menu board to find "Western Bacon Cheeseburger" & Double Western. I wasn't greedy so I ordered a WBC. When asked if I wanted a combo I said okie. I regretted so. You will find out later why. $9.30 for a medium combo meal, it's kinda expensive fastfood if you compare to places like Mac & BK.

So there I had this number tag, and a cup. You get to choose your own drink. I did not dare to try their lemon tea so I sticked to the good'ole Season from the dispenser.

Waiting for my meal to be served.

Here it comes..


Gulp~ such a big burger, now you know why I regretted ordering a combo.


So there I was happily exploring this new fast food, flipping the burger open to take a peep inside and slowly bites by bites exploring the new taste. The peep told me the burger was made up of 1st the bun, huge it may look like but luckily it was soft bun so it wasn't too much for me to take despite it looking UFO HUGE. Next we have 2 stripes bacon, nicely grilled, crispy and it gives the burger a nice touch of aroma. Then the cheese & the char-broiled beef patty which turned out to be "chao-ta" on the other side. But I didn't ask for a exhange.. Who would be so silly to ask for an exchange when you are already half done (see below). Oh, by now already I could feel 60% full. Take note of the full pack of fries still smiling widely at me. I tot that was all the burger gave me when I was mid way eh, how come got crispy bites again 1? I flipped open the bun & peep again.. I saw onion rings.. hello? did I say ONION RINGS? Yes, 2 big fat ones. Fun, the crispy skin gave the burger extra bite & the idea to have onion rings inside the burger is fun. I mean yeah I used to see people stuffing french fries into their Mac Burgers. so I guess the logic is same. Nice. The BBQ sauce was the best, tangy smokey, heights the olfactory sensation entirely.

I must say their portions are huge. I see many couple sharing a burger & getting more then 1 side dish. I should do that in my next visits. After completing the burger, I spent the next 30mins slowly looking at people & munching fries. Until my sensory says, no more stop. So I pick up sticks the fries and have to put them to waste. I was too free, I counted I left 18 behind, auspicious number, hee hee... my order number was 37. Any 4D freaks?? Karen 1st time give lobang on her bloggie... 1, 8, 3, 7.. shui leh.. hee..

There were so many items on their menu when I ws surfing on their webbie, must go visit them a few more times. People date me for Carls Jr lunch soon yeah. And I also want to try their condiments bar the next time cos I see their salsa is a popular pick in my 1hr stay there. I was alone so I wasn't too adventurous this time. I also want to do their chili burger. I am so into Subway's chili so I am sure their chilli would be nice too.. Somewhat like our zhe char's prickled green chili. Okie okie these food talking is making me hungry liao. I am going to pack and go home for soup now.

Oh before I go.

food ratings: since they do stars for their logo.

Food: ****/**** 4 out of 5

Service: *****/***** Full 5, their crew are very helpful and the managers recommend for 1st time visitors. So, thumbs up.

Okie I am out of here for now.. Bye~ Mama soup here I come~

Location: B8st D*nki Tampines
Purpose: Buy a standing fan

Aunt (A): Come look at this model how is it?
Me (M): Looks good.
A: Excuse me, Can you tell me more about this model. (Salesman S walks in)
S: Are you looking for remote control ones?
A: Do we need remote?
M: No need ah.
S: Then why spend $30 more? I recommend u this X Brand, exactly the same as this model you see here. Same manufacturer, different brand, different colour only.
M: Sure the same.
S: Looking pissed - Same Same all the same. Want to buy one?
A: But we have not seen the thing yet, got sample?
S: No sample. Want or don't want?
A: Looking at me. How?
M: Anything, you paying, you decide.
A: Take out one and show us can?
S: Calls another sales rep and he went to took out 1.
S: Open the carton, takes out the top cupboard revealing the round cover of the fan only. Here.
M: Base leh? Motor leh? Can see?
S: Unreluctantly after a long time. Here
A: So you sure the same?
M: Why must recommend this brand? Is it because commission higher? (recalling Small Salleh sharing with me his B8st's Days & how he would just push 1 brand microwave when they commission was priced higher then the other ranges).
S: I am helping you save $30 for the same thing, if you prefer Y brand then take Y Brand (not looking at us when saying this - very bad attitude liao. me? very pissed with this body language liao!)
Mum: Don't say such things, he will not like it.
M: Fact. Otherwise he would not be so kind to want to reject higher sales transaction.
A: Okie . We take this. Can you pls help us to bring it down to the taxi stand after we finish our dinner?
S: This is Cash & Carry item.
A: Then loan us a trolley we push down ourselves.
S: We have no trolley here.
M: VERY PISSED LIAO!! walks away and scream at the top of my lungs: THIS IS INDEED CUSTOMER SERVICE!!
Sales rep who carried the fan out heard me asked S to go take a call and attend to us.
He explain this is cash & carry item unless say u came alone & cannot managed then we would help you carry to taxi stand.
M: Ridicuulous. Come alone then provide service? If 1 came alone and bought a hi-fi set, 1 blender, 1 microwave & 1 hair dryer, am I supposed to walk 3 times to carry my purchases.
This point I was super boily liao, I told my folks to pay and get out of the store.
Had never liked the impression such electronics staff given in the past, BUT this heights the displease to the MAX. If it wasn't for cash vouchers we have I swear I never patronise them again. Even if I had the needs to I am sure to visit another less busy outlet whereby salesman would be more "hungry" for sales and more polite, as compared to people like them who has this "you want you buy, you don't want don't ask me too many questions" attitude. with the back of their mind processing: "my outlet is super high traffic, so there would be many prawns" "Not potential. no need service" SORRY! Aunty Karen here has been a saleswoman all her life! SO, you give me half past six standard, you better know the consequence. You were lucky you did not get a direct screwing in your face or call your manager here last night. Maybe old fat lard has gotten too much of such treatments I am sure 2 or 3 more complains would not "hurt" him too much.

At the foodcourt, on my cab journey home, I was literally swearing at that idiot. My day could had been splendid if it was not him ruining the evening. I curse he kena bad scream at his face customer & not meeting sales quota for the next 6 month, FAT OLD LARD!!!!

can i have a show of hands who says fire drill evacuation was fun and good excuse to stay away from work?

no way.. not when it's 11am, the sun is scorching hot, you didn't carry the umbrella out, the lifts were not put to work, and yr entire office of a few thousands have to walk down 3 storeys staircases with sirens in your ears?

this was fairly an experience for a 1st timer.
the horror came when the fire warden guiding us told us to move out of office compound to gather at point A. so the whole lot started walking, point A was actually the expo hall 7. imagine my office to expo? its like 10mins stroll and given the human traffic there is hardly chance for u to speed, for if you do u may step on the $800 prada leather shoes of the MD in front of you. juz joking, there was hardly room for speeding up as there were really too many on the road. so all u could do was wish clouds came in and hide uncle sun for like a few minutes to make life more pleasant for u, but in realty weather is not controlled with a tv controller. 15mins later after all the attendance taking and walking, the exercise was over. phew. now the 2nd torturous part, walking back.

suffer right? thru and fro half and hr of sun? instead i walked over to expo to pack lunch since i was there and lunchtime was near. there was this baby fair exhibition going on so i went in and kapoh abit. ended up coming out spending $50. duhz if i had not gone in i would had been $50 richer.

crocs - beach pink footwear.

it has been long time since me & mum had eyed on her just that we had never commited into a pair and mum seems very interested in having 1. so this time since i've seen it i picked up a pair. she wanted red colour but there was no size M for red so i took a pair of pink instead. i like a bright yellow for myself but there wasn't stocks as well. so i paid off for this pair instead. tried it in office and it fitted me nicely. i tot mum's size was just about mine and about there but the sad news when i tried it on her earlier, cannot fit if the back strap was taken down, can fit only if used as slip ons. so she said, forget it. keep the pair for myself and she would get herself a pair if she see nice purple. i was so upset, to see such response for some surprise i was anticipating the entire afternoon in office. anyway, it was due to my poor judgement also. so *piak piak* lesson learnt. next time bring the consumer along. good in a way cos i have another item for myself :P

did i juz *pitchar* my own lobang.. hee hee hee.. no hor, it was REALLY intended for mumsie..

anyway, the long waited weekend is finally here. the entire week has been a torture. i am getting very little energy and feeling lethargic very very easily. i tend not to sleep early in the nite even if i was in bed like 2 hrs earlier then the norm. tossing like stirred fried veges in the bed like that. and the following morning i would wake up feeling like i tossed 6hrs non-stop. for the whole week i was like this. i guess tuning has to be done to make sure i have nice sleeping patterns again. cannot afford such behaviours no more.

its dinner with the gals tomorrow and some breeze plus unplug. i wish the weekend would be great and i wish yrs would be as pleasant as well.

nitez~

rested a full 2 weeks and i am all back in office with my usual routine again.
it's kinda tiring especially when u mentally wish to sleep but physically do not fall into. so i kinda had a lite sleep and woke up alittle draggy this morning.

came back to office today big & small bags with my lappy, sweater bag & lunch bag today. marchiam like ah soh going to the market. spent a whole morning clearing up and tidying my inbox, trashing mails that i do not need any more. so it's more or less neater now.

have some work coming in while i was away but i aint working on it yet. gonna kickass and do them like "soon"

i think genki sushi last nite more or less made me somewhat guilty last nite so i came in with a healthy lunchbox this morning..

presenting: -

ta-dah~ my healthy lunch today. in the cup u see like some oats stirred into hot water. i have some baby carrots and some crispy lettuce in the box and a can of sinful mayo tuna.


so how do u umm umm them?
simple. but before you start, u have to do some grocery shopping 1st. hee~
chewing lettuce is so dull and it can give a bitter after-taste (some)
so it would be yummy if u add in some tasty tuna like u see here, onto the lettuce and then roll the leaf up into a roll.

after the rolling, next? AHHHHHH open the mouth big big and UMMMMM~ :p
nice chewy crispy juicy lettuce with soft savoury tuna... heavenly.
so i had like 10over leaf of lettuce to finish the can of 185g tuna. baby carrots? just wash them clean and chew raw. i felt a little rabbit-y like what my mama says when she was preparing the lunch box for me. but to have occasionally sweet carrots and juicy lettuce with some oats to fill u up, it aint too bad an idea either.

oh remember, with this much of fiber eaten, flush plenty of water. if not the poo poo won't come out u know? talking about poo poo, this silly friend of mine cracked
this joke which i took for real for a few seconds.. lucky the prank wasn't on me. i dunno who's the poor victim of hers anyway..

okie dok. this much for work & lunch. i am going back to the emails..

out folks~

visited expensive seah again today. good news the eye is intact and responding well to surgery. so i am somewhat glad no complications had developed. pls don't develope also. bad news, lasik to remove stitches cost $300 bucks special price some more.. sibei expensive woh.

finished my checkup had 20mins before the bus leaves for town so i went to tanglin mall and walked abit. wanted to return to the lobby but only to see the silly bus left when i was at the doorstep of the building.. grrr should had walked abit more and catch the silly last bus for the day. had to walk a full 20mins in order to reach town and the weather is so damn freaking hot.

if u say the day is bad at this point, u are very wrong. with a hungry stomach and abundant plans in the head i picked up some bread from sun molin at isetan scotts before heading down to taka to pay "godma" a visit. its was good to catch up with her with some milk to fill the tummy while waiting for lunch date to arrive in town. chatted "xiao pang" up alot as well. this is the 1st time i tell u in my aquaintance with him that we had so much to talk. i used to think xiao pang is foolish when i hear his stories. but today i feel different. i feel he has so much burden to carry on his 2 "not so small shoulders". period. don't read too much into the line, no sympathy no grieves for him. just placed myself in his shoes and i could 'feel" his burden. look from another angle, he may look controlled but his also a "provision" in his marriage. good or bad, its pespective to individual.

i planned to visit ann at paragon and have dinner with her and fen in the evening. but my lunch dates moved on from cine to ctp. so i had to miss ann. oh what's worst when u were not informed and u suddenly move from ctp to rc? i planned to do heerens for some accessories shopping as well but i didn't get them either. sometimes u really have to voice out what u want and make concrete plans rather then following blindly. cos moving with the flow would get u further downstream and u would need extra energy to move up again. that is if u had them.

my energy? kosong. so i soothed the silly cramp in the left leg with a cup of iced milk tea and jumped straight on the eastern bound to get home. it was wise choice for if i was still in town now i would imagine my frustration level hiking.

verdict: my saturday was low down lousy. sometimes isolation aint bad an idea.

izzit he sweet?

Can't help falling in love - Elvis Presley

Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life toof
or I can't help falling in love with you
for I can't help falling in love with you

had never knew this piece was done by elvis, my time i only knew ub40 did this song. so i went searching it - oh mine.. elvis is so shakespeare sounding. and look at his fans. only thought nowadays youngster would do this to idols. geez~

I'm kinda disappointed with the ending of samsoon. i expected more lovey dovey scenes or them getting married. but still the finale was packed with emotions that this softy here has then tendency to want to weep joyous tears, but i had to hold. i think i am well trained like the korean stars now to weep with 1 eye too. :)

sam shik made me yearn for hugs again. its nice yeah to get hugged by a loved one.

okie 2 weeks of resting, i should be back to work next week.
seeing expensive steve tomorrow to get a piece of mind to make sure things are okie with the eye, after all my abuse for the past days. i hope he dont give me bad news *cross my fingers*
i think its some shopping after which.

i wanna go have cake and tea at the v tea room anyone? a lazy weekend afternoon with liquor or non liqour rich cake and nice tea or kopi or soda to wash them down. splendid. can some1 date me soon?

came to realise how men who can play music can be mesmerizing.

jin-hyun oppa made me realise this.

i'm starting to like men with talent.

Over the Rainbow - Arlen Harburg

Somewhere over the rainbow, Way up high

There's a land that I heard of, Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow, Skies are blue

And the dreams that you dare to dream, Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star, And wake up

where the clouds are far behind me, Where troubles melt like lemondrops

Away above the chimney tops, That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow, Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow, Why then, oh why can't I? (Because, I am too "tum tum niah")

Some day I'll wish upon a star, And wake up where the clouds are far behind me

Where troubles melt like lemondrops, Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow, Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow, Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly, Beyond the rainbow Why, oh why can't I?

1-quarter way to completing MNIKSS. Some parts are so touching and my soft spots makes me wanna weep but with the silly stitches in the eye, i aint supposed to weep unneccesaringly. so i had to control and watch with kept emotions.

i am feeling so samsoon lately. maybe because she is reflecting the "so-me" in my daily life.

-30yrs old, single, with an o-mu-nia (mother) who's so worried her daughter cannot get hitched.

but samsoon is passionate. her life, her career - i guess i should set her as a role model and show a little more passion to my work and "life"

ann san asked: when would i ring my wedding bells. i say when the right man comes. i think i need to participate in getting the right man. but thank lord my ah-bu she does not sets me up for blind dates. blind dates aint bad ideas. hmmm.. aside from r'ship now.

10days post-op: asked me what i had been doing? surfing, watching tv, sleeping late like 2 3 am, waking up late. the bad ones, u name it, i've done them. i think i really lack discipline and self-control, and i only reprimand when things goes wrong. argghhh sh*tty. i know i am supposed to be semi-sick and resting in bed but i aint. and i complain here pain, there wrong after it, what's with me? ask me? search me: its my traits.

okie i am out of here with all whinnings. sometimes if disciplines was like a 'one-click installation" from some websites it would be good...