Wednesday, May 24, 2006
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10:02 PM
sorry folks, for the lack of updates for the past weeks.
so here you go a quick 1 b4 i left office for the day.
work: hectic 3 weeks. day in day out of 14 hrs from 930am to 1130pm.
alot of procastination at work, little motivation, not efficient, putting things off, alot of hiccups with some deals. in short long hrs, extreme tiring.
play: 1 recall 1 bbq session, 1 steamboat session & 1 overnite chat session with the regular gangs.
leisure: devil beside you on scv and peach protein nitely (almost - of the topics are good) and if i aint dosed off on the sofa
rest: weekdays - 5hrs sleep weekends 12. thats the average.
happenings: none! no havoc no nothing.
its difficult to think with a fatigue mind, sigh.
upcoming event, the very much hyped abt tour that was booked in early april. setting off in 2 days time. be away from the cosy usual comfy bed for 5 days. current mentality: madness rush to clear work b4 going off on leave. zero excitment maybe 2% increment today cos work is lesser in backlog now and more discussion on the itinerary. not very excited on the trip cos looking at the itinerary planned - fri afternoon arrival, check in hotel, whole sale market. sat: chatuchak another market follow by maybe some shopping malls then nite time suam lum nite market. sunday bo bae market follow by 4faced bhudda visiting. 2 days in a row of markets markets. sian 1/2 i am looking forward to a blend of shopping malls and stuff. shall see how it goes.
more updates when i am back folks.
out.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
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2:09 AM
Tell me folks, what is your transition period like everytime when you fall out of love?
1 days? 1 week? 1 month? 1 year?
Frankly, there ain’t a standard. But 1 week is kinda too way too fast, don’t you think so?
See, I think things are really over with TC & bro because we have this new gal on the block who crashed in tonight. i was told by my mum on the fone this evening that TC called her and talk to her. Asking her things like “how come she does not like TC, is it because she lied, does she not treats my family well?” and stuff and so on and so for.
Prior to that TC she msged me which got me alittle inbalanced trying to counter her which in the end, I did nothing. Coming to relate things together, she seems to be in a bad patch. Hey, am I also like ahui? 同情心泛滥? Or she genuinely needs some care and concern at this point of time? I frankly do not know how to communicate to terms with her.
While we are still fumbling with TC in our thoughts and not really settled down. And on the other hand things of TC has not even been cleared, came another gal. don’t rub your eyes. YES! We have another “resident”, which I only said like 1 hi to her.
A short conversation with my bro took place.
Me: eh, you think u eating at an express sushi bar ah? 1 side haven finished start at the other side. (to me I term this as “熟食面恋爱” – quick & instant.)
Bro: that 1 no more liao.
Me: then pack her stuff and send them back. Atrocious leh you.
I told mum, 一包都还没解决掉，又来了多一包。他当这里是什么地方? He says this is tampines chalet. Can vomit blood rite? Sometime I really do not know what’s processing in his mind. One hand he was crying silly when TC is leaving, the other hand he is turning ard way too fast. Next TC even told my mum that she was told a new gal was coming over today, this was also how we knew we would be expecting new face today.. sigh this is too complex.
Frankly I am washing my hands off. I think I’ve set bad examples to him that his following suit. My 4 yrs old ex-bf used to crash in over the weekends while we were dating and I think this seems to have injected into his puny brains that its alrite to let his date crash in. I mean I think its okie to do so occasionally and not like frequently. And most imptly is you don’t crash in like within the 1st few days or few weeks of dating rite? Errmm not even when the excuse is “miss tour guide is flying off for work tomorrow and our home in tampines is closer to the airport then her place in jurong.” Excuse me, prior to seeing mr. tampines you don’t have issues with going to work, so what makes it after you start seeing him? No excuses… wait. I am washing my hands off..
This post is very inorganised I know, because the tv is on with 桃色蛋白质 and I am juggling btw tv and the pc. Also I am not in the right organized thoughts to pen this down. This is all I need to record.
But before I end, TC’s last note:
“Hi Miss Yeong, I am Jenny here. I and your bro be steady coming to 2 yrs soon. Nw your mum did not approval us, to be together. Is yr mum did not approval us to be together early, I will not hurt myself so deep and so sad. Do you noe nw I everyday crying and I no appetite to eat any food for 4 days. All the while I treat you and mum very well, why you all treat me like this. I really don understand is it because our age tat why yr mum nt happy. I ready very sad n very upset. I long time never talk to you, in my heart I always treat you as my sister. Now I ready very sad and upset.”
Earlier TC also told my mum she has been coughing blood and was warded to the hospital for a day.
I am sad to a certain extend to hear such a things but this is really an issues with her. she has never been a regular healthy person who knows how to take care of herself on a normal day, not surprised if she is in worse shape now.
Anyway I am recording this down so that it serves as memories. Good and bad ones. Let’s see what’s in store moving on.
Nite folks.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
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11:35 AM
I think I am a duo me of late. I live in 2 worlds. One physical and one spiritual. Woooo, don’t get me wrong, I am not associated with those ‘好兄弟’
See, every night I put physical Karen to rest, spiritual Karen would take over her shift and start wondering in the dreamworld.
I keep having all sorts of dreams nitely. So much so that it is depriving me of my sleep now. I told ah eng I am constantly tired for the past few weeks and it seems that the due cause is from the extension of my thoughts in the day. She said, dreams comes true and I shriek, for if all the dreams came true I think my life would be like a local delicacy, rojak. Messy, sticky, yummy on another hand too.
But, but but, last nite, this dream of mine, is so unique, I would not mind it coming true.
Recent discussion on ahui’s blog is about homosexuality, how they behave and what their life revolves. I am also an avid reader of a bunch of them (call me a closeted reader if you may) and I am very much inclined to the homosexual beings I would say. With all thes processings in the day time, came one sweet dream last nite.
The gals like to know him as Mr A now.
Mr. A in my dream last nite was an unusually close, warm, really-man man *he is man most days lah, but last nite he was zero-bitchiness. 101% man.
Okie, the dream started off with Mr, A waiting for me in the car when next come me, aheve and ahui chatting rowdily in. we then next hope into the car where Mr. A greeted us with a wide smile spread on his face. He soon then drove the 3 of us to school. So this told me we were school gals. Which midway I told Mr. A that I cannot go to school with the gals as I’ve forgotten to bring my bag with me. Mr. A smile warmly and says we shall drop the gals in school before we detour back home to pick up the bag and return to school again. I smiled and agreed. On the car journey home, Mr. A was heartily chatting away like a mid 20’s, making small talks, smiley, giggly thru out the entire journey.
Then suddenly Mr. A he took out 1 white fluffy insect which I warn him not to use it to touch my face as I knew it would numb the sensation but he did and I had like my cheeks numb which got him worried and speeding home. (see the sudden unrelatedness here? More to come.) when we got home, he quickly rush me into the showers saying a bath would get rid of the reaction on the face which I did.
Best part of the dream. I got out of the showers and Mr. A was! cooking a meal in front of the stove with nothing but his boxers on. The chest that I see was his early 30s chest. The chunky V muscular type. Woo.. additional perks I was “treated to” was a cuddle and him checking if the cheeks were okie.
See good things don’t come in a dozen (except for Goodwood Park Durian Puffs, you want 6 dozens also no issues ) :P
I was woken up when the cuddle could had move on.. *evil chuckle*
Oh, back to reality. This is one time I would totally with ah eng that dreams would come true. So when will the day come that Mr. A can romance me abit leh?
Hahahahaha.. go bang the wall and wake the 大头鬼 up Karen..
Back to my work, I haven quite warm up my engine this morning yet.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
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9:21 PM
Oh, I think I can go be a fortune teller with a "magic" crystal ball liao.
Just as much as I've expect.. It was FALSE ALARM.
More cheena wayang then the 琼瑶's 情深深雨蒙蒙。
More dramatic then the Hindi Movies "Selvam" on Vasantham Central's.
I think I do not need tv at home no more. Shoo shoo i'm gonna return my scv box :p and sell my vcd player and auction my tvs away and trash my pc off.
I have REALITY TV playing at home... but i am not into reality tv, not when it's not as "REAL" as it should be..
I should watch the regular tvs instead :)
out n back home. long day in office...
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12:51 AM
one long weekend, plenty of tv watching and 2 romance movie.oh perfect way to wrap up my weekend.
trust me folks, if u have not caught this show. do so now.
run down to the rentals and ask for "Just Like Heaven" rope in ur boyfriend, husband, girlfriend, mummy, or even your lovey dovey doggie or plush toy and sink into the sofa with this show.
the last 15 mins is so very touching i wept. yes, at the expense of my eyes. but it so so touching i cannot hold the tears back.
ain't gonna say much about the storyline, just gonna say watch it..
oh any1 watched "all about love"? i think i am running to the rentals to drop the 2 cds and pick that up along with the few i mentioned.. hey what's gonna happen to my scv rental? wrong timing dude... kaoz.. out and to bed. nite lovers.. :p nite folks i mean...
Monday, May 01, 2006
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11:17 PM
See, I told you people, I am god damn sure there will be part 2 3 4 5 and 6. And in just less then 6hrs from my last post, the part 2 is non other then now, on-screen. This is even hotter then my new scv hot box.
Okie, so at about 10pm the terror chicken stormed into the house and straight into bro’s room without even greeting people around or saying hi. Benefit of doubt, mum was in the bathroom again and there was no 1 to greet, so she is quite excused here.
I think she is here to 和解 or maybe even to pack her bags and go. BUT to my sane horror, she stormed in made some small talks, some noises then shut up complete and went silent for the remaining event. I just hope they are not making love. :x
Talk about not daring to face the folks or stuff like this, wow I see NONE of it in her man..
I mean if it was me, I would had just got the guy to send my bags down and go… call this what? WHAT the HELL precisely. I know this lass would not give up this easily. It’s gonna be nitemares… For bro and for us.. imagine I have to call her SIL? Oh oh no.. pls… I rather SEAL in this case..
Period.. I know more is to come as expected.
My “Just like Heaven” is running half and hr on the vcd and I had to stop the running just to give an updates… I mean I cannot concentrate watching with these thoughts in my mind.
Back to the show now, gonna finish it before its way too late like 1 2am before I turn in again. Folks has warned me to rest the eyes enough so I shall abide,,
Quotes from the movies that I kinda like and agree with them.
“God have beer to make men brave and women loose”… *chuckle* true in every human sense. So beer can be good or evil whichever way you view it.
“Emotionally unavailable” – yeah you know what? I am seeing such a man now. He! is “emotionally unavailable” ! hands n feets up with agreement.. out with such men.. wait I have to play with time alittle bitsy more. So that equates I have some more to “suffer”
Back to the movies, I simply love weekends with movies in nowadays…
all thanx to “In Her Shoes” not in-store that got me to pick up “Just like Heaven”
I love this movie. Catch it if ya have not folks.. Reese Witherspoon kinda sweet while Mark Ruffalo rocks..
Take the lead. That’s the next rental on my list. Together with The Terminal which is also out the other day, In her shoes and plenty more. I am so into movies lately…
Luv ya all, back with more juices tomorrow~ Out~
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5:03 PM
okie, i know what is missing out in my processing trend liao.
it is haunting me predominately the content of the sms.
does it serves as a hatred warning, a kiddish retaliation or just a harmless piece of information. i cannot seems to read the sms transparently and take it word for word. it has too much of a hidden meanings in it, i sense. or is it just me being to sensitive?
arggghh.. meanwhile. my mum has yet complete her cursing and looking out. tiring...
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4:08 PM
I dunno to call it good news or not?
I recieved a sms.
Jenny Hp: Halo today i break off with yr brother already. U n yr mum shall be happy nw.
I read the msg and I exit and placed my phone aside. Follow on, I went to break news to my mum. Which, mum then told me the silly boy is weeping secretly in his room. Not too soft that it can be hidden thou.
Then follows him going out to the corridor and things after multiple smses came onto his hp. And mum and me has to follow out to see if he was okie. wah, sounds like the food chain cycle in the animal world.
See, I am spectulating that the woman must be on some hoax or threaten mode that gets him outside to be on a look-out and in return I have to look-out for my bro. Recalling the last time we were told she threaten my bro she would jump down from the 3rd storey of the multi storey carpark, i suspect its the same wayang mama opera replaying on my freshly arrived new hot scv box again.
With me on my background is my mum repeatingly asking me to go look out for my bro while she is bathing and changing in the bathroom till i am also like telling her, cool it.. sigh. i dunno if i should be a little more anxious now or be cool as a cucumber still.
okie back to the boy, i broke the news to ah eng that terror chicken informed us of the breaking up. which i dunno if i should be victory for me for trying so hard to boycott her since nov 2005 or to be sad. frankly i am sad. see, bro is a very soft boy despite 25 and been thru so many relationships. everytime one ends he would always cry silly secretly and it hurts me to see that. i told mum, his no longer young and should be able to sort out things in him, date a prim and proper gal whos like ard his age, grabs a decent job and most importantly can hit off and be truthful in the relationship. the nitty grittys like we can accept her or not and how well it gets along all these can be adjusted one. but it never seems to fall in everytime.
move the focus to me now. same happens after my last relationship, which i consider it a flop also... things does not fall in prim and proper for me too. now the focus to my mum, she does not get the nice complete cycle too, except she is luckier, she managed to go thru a nice courtship and got hitched which in return produced the 2 of us. good in some way, bad in some. good because we get to see the world. bad, the world is not ideal as i wish it was. okie back to mum, why isn't she complete? 都怪我的死鬼老爸不会想。这么早就去卖咸鸭蛋。害我老妈年轻时就要吃进不少苦。*老爸今晚不要托梦给我啊，我只是着事实告诉我的朋友们而已。*你是真的年轻就不会想吗。更糟糕的是，连我也在步你的后成噢。有其父比有其女啊。嗨!
okie, enuff later papa seriously come back give me blue black then i will have no peace liao.. wait.. long time never visit him with flowers liao.. bookmark my next weekend cal, i better do so asap.
in my recent post, i mentioned about karma. as in what goes around will come around. this time round i am so harsh to this gal, i think it would come back to me eventually also. so in order to earn some good deed i better do some charitable acts of any form. i am losing mental trend now as i am writing cos i am processing too much things in the mind now, plus running around the house to see if her shoes bags and wardrobe has been cleared and listening to my mum grumbling how bad as a gal she is and how my lao peh will come haunt her.
with this i better wrap and go r&r abit. i need to sort out my thoughts before i can pen proper.
out n be back for me.
there will be part 2 3 4 5 and 6 i am sure cos the bags are not clear and stuff.
so play on "endless love" folks and stay tuned....
